January 31, 2010

i know it’s been a really long time since i’ve written. i’ve been in classes for just over two weeks and the adjustment to living a new/old life has definitely kept me busy.

it’s difficult to describe how it feels to be back. i love being here. it’s good to be with all my friends and to have a life outside lazing around the house; however, there is something about the familiarity of the life that i’m living now that takes me back to those first three weeks last september. i’m taking some of the same classes, with the same professors, during the same hours. there are some new factors to this semester; but in all, i think i will feel better once i reach the forth week and i don’t find myself retracing old steps. reliving these first weeks has been a constant reminder of what happened, and that much has been really difficult.

however, i do feel like i am starting to get back into the swing of things. although i don’t think my body has fully recovered from waking up at seven every morning without nine hours of sleep to fuel me for the day, i am managing to get my homework done and make it from sunrise to sunset in one piece. (usually).

everything is still a huge adjustment. i am at a really odd place musically, spiritually, physically…i could go on. this next week starts the third being in classes. i’m looking forward to the fourth.